The Denver–Red Rocks Initiation

Date Range: October 26 – November 5
Location: Denver • Boulder • Golden • Red Rocks

Opening the Portal

This journey began as a question and became a calling.

What started as a solo vacation—my first chosen entirely for myself—quickly revealed itself as something much deeper: a rite of passage, a reclaiming, a sovereign initiation into the next chapter of my life.

From the moment the Apashe Red Rocks ticket was purchased, the universe responded with precision. Doors opened. Timelines aligned. Fear surfaced—not to stop me, but to be healed in motion.

I did not travel to escape my life.
I traveled to meet myself.

The Planning Was the Spell

Every step of preparation carried intention:

Booking flights alone, without compromise

Choosing space, not chaos

Honoring my love of Halloween, ritual, solitude, and music

Trusting my intuition even when fear tried to speak louder

This was the first act of sovereignty: I chose myself without waiting for permission.

Arrival & Alignment

Colorado welcomed me like an old friend.

Everything flowed:

Seamless travel

Unexpected upgrades

Strangers who felt familiar

Views that expanded my chest

A sense—not imagined, but embodied—that I was exactly where I was meant to be

For the first time in my life, I arrived somewhere and did not feel like a visitor.
I felt recognized.

Symbols & Synchronicities

This journey spoke in symbols:

Amethyst & Silver: A Margot de Taxco brooch found in Boulder—spiraled silver holding real amethyst—calling to me instantly. Created by a woman who left New Orleans to forge her own artistic destiny in Mexico, it mirrored my own path of leaving, becoming, and reclaiming self-authorship.

The Sky: Orion, the North Star, the Seven Sisters, and an almost-full supermoon watched over Red Rocks like sentinels.

Friendship: A true friend protected my peace in my absence, proving that real allies guard your becoming—not your past.

Music as Lineage: Watching Josh Teed bring his mother on stage at Red Rocks cracked my heart open—art, ancestry, and love woven into one moment.

Nothing was random. Everything was reflective.

The Mountain Test

Red Rocks revealed a truth I hadn’t planned for:
I carry a deep, primal fear of heights.

And yet—I climbed.

Not through force.
Not through logic.
But through presence.

As panic rose, I grounded my feet, slowed my breath, named the fear, and wrapped my heart in golden light. In that moment, something ancient released.

I did not conquer fear.
I integrated it.

And then I danced.

This was the true initiation: learning—viscerally—that I can meet terror without abandoning myself.

The Crowned Moment

Apashe at Red Rocks was not just a concert.
It was a culmination.

Orchestra. Light. Bass. Sky. Stone.
Every sense activated. Every layer of me awake.

I stood inside beauty so vast it was overwhelming—and I stayed.

I did not shrink.
I did not dissociate.
I did not run.

I let myself be changed.

The Final Lesson: Boundaries in Real Time

The past attempted one last intrusion.

Old patterns reached for me at a vulnerable moment.
This time, I saw them clearly.

I did not engage.
I did not collapse.
I did not surrender my magic.

I held my center, even when tested.

This was the second defining moment of the journey:
I no longer mistake intrusion for intimacy.

Release & Reclamation

In Golden, Colorado—between North and South Table Mountain—I performed a closing ritual.

I released what was no longer mine to carry.
I grounded what I had learned into my body.
I claimed a future that looks different than the one I once imagined.

For the first time after a trip, I did not want to go home.
Not because I was escaping—but because I had discovered what alignment feels like.

And I now know I will not un-know it.

Integration

I returned home under a full moon.

Not as the person who left—but as someone who remembers:

I am sovereign.

I can trust my body.

I can meet fear and stay present.

I belong to myself.

My path is expanding—and I will follow it.

This journey did not end in Colorado.

It began there.

Seal

I carry the mountains within me.
I walk forward golden, grounded, and free.

So it is.